As I am standing in inches of toilet water, I am thinking to myself, “THIS IS NOT WHAT I NEED.” It has been a week full of heart-wrenching difficult things. Indeed, I cried out, “God, could I not get a tiny bitty break – my heart is already bleeding from within.”
With no audible answer from God, I quickly took hold of him, with all of my being. My circumstances seemed cruel, and yet I moved forward with mind, body, and soul –
I Chose To Trust GOD.
I reminded myself of all that God had done in my past. Together we had seen much worse. With water permeating most corners of my home, I knew that this was nothing God couldn’t handle. I heard God’s little whispers; “Maree, I am with you.”
Right there at that moment, a peace that made no human sense filled me from head to toes. This peace was incredible, but life had taught me a few things over the years, and I knew this feeling was hard to hang onto.
With a peace filled heart, I knew I could choose to accept my circumstances and move forward or fight them for a bit. So with wet feet, I decided to say, “It is what it is.”
I Chose Acceptance.
Had I not decided to accept my current situation, I would have started the ugly tantrum dance. My ranting and raving for sure would have driven the kind plumber out of my house, leaving me to fend for myself. Without acceptance, I would have wasted precious minutes in getting the help this family so desperately needed.
Yes, these were circumstances I had never expected, but I was living a life I had never expected. So with trust in God and acceptance of my current situation, I had the ability to move forward.
The plumber kept looking around and shaking his head. Unable to contain his thoughts, he blurted out, “Wow, this is BAD, REALLY BAD.” Trying a bit of humor, he asked, “I hope you were ready for a kitchen redo?”
I remember the plumber looking at me and saying, “Wow, Mrs. Dee you are super calm and handling this so well.” “I have never seen a house flooded and a person so composed.” I thought to myself, little did he know this was nothing in the big scheme of things. After all, I had God and what is a lot of water compared to a child fighting for her life? At that moment, I could have cared less if my whole house was ruined. I just wanted my child to be okay. With trust in God and acceptance of my situation, one more important choice was needed to prevent my unraveling.
I Chose To Stay In The Present Moment.
You see if I had allowed myself to leave the present moment; I can guarantee this momma would have collapsed from the weight of it all. The past, future and present moments would have been too much all at once.
My mind would have raced to the child sitting all alone in a Psychiatric Hospital and to the pondering of how I had failed her in her greatest time of need. Next, I would have moved forward to the stress of how on earth I was going to pull off a Graduation Party at my home the following week for a child that also needed to be recognized, honored and loved.
Little did I know that this was the beginning of learning the skills that would carry me forward into being the parent and wife my family would need. Of course, I will never perfect these skills, and I will always be a work in progress. However, when those unexpected circumstances visit, because they undeniably will ……
– I will go back to
Trusting God in the mess
Accepting my situation
Staying in the present moment
Then I will thank God for that peace that fills my soul, a peace that makes no human sense.
I would love to hear what works for you when unexpected and unwanted circumstances show up in your life.